New Version Of Me

September 21, 2007 at 2:21 pm (being better, dinner, dreams, flirting, friendship, Games, gay, happyness, improving, kiss, love, music, Shy, tea, town)

Mood: Happy

Song: New Version Of You

“Can you become a new version of you?
New wallpaper, new shoe leather, a new way home
I don’t remember
New version of you, I need a new version of me”

I’m overwhelmed by the direction my life has taken this last week.

First of all, I have a clique at work though they’re not co-workers, so I spend a lot of time with ’em.

Second, my boss noticed that I’ve been workin’ hard on these past holidays (in order to provide the services that we’re expected to give to our customers, even when we’re facing a “storm” caused by the 5-days National Holiday celebration). Work was done impeccably, and all the credit was mine to seize. He was so happy that we even talked about the possibility of a trip to the States (yay!)

And finally, I met a guy. Is kinda funny, cuz we met long time ago through internet (I told you that I was a gamer before, right?).
I’ve been playing Lineage 2 for a long time, and this guy was in my team, and we used to talk about stuff (tons of it. he knows me better than my dad, by now).
Last 19th all geeks that play on the Chilean server got together in a barbecue, and since I’m feeling more confident about myself, I went to the meeting.

It took just one second. I look at him and I stared. I was dazzled, this guy is handsome and sweet, and shy too. It was glorious, because we both were looking at each other’s eyes… We started talking, and we realized we have a lot in common. It was about sunset when we decided to keep talking in a quieter place.
Since my apartment was a 10 minutes walk away, we were on our path to get a nice cup of tea. We kept talking about music, life, movies, games, and everything was flowing naturally… Suddenly he took my hand, and he told me he thought that I was beautiful and rare, and he kissed me in the cheek… He was blushing and he was really, really nervous (and so was I, but I tried not to crumble and melt right there).

I just wanted to, so I held his hand for a few seconds, and I kissed him. His lips tasted so sweet, and he was trembling as I was; we kissed for a long time…

That day, officially we started dating. Today, we’re going out for pizza and beer, and then to a movie.

I AM HAPPY!!!

BTW: His name is Chris. And he has the most intense brown eyes I’ve ever seen.

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Get to know J

September 11, 2007 at 8:52 pm (being better, gay, happyness, improving, know me, love, Shy)

This was borrowed from Tigeryogi’s blog:

1. What is your best friend’s Dad’s name? :$ I don’t know if he actually has a regular(any) friend. I must say Juan, wich is the name of my grandfather.

2. What body part do you hate the most? I hate armpits. They are so not cute, though they’re sexy when a guy in a tanktop comes to you…

3. Who was the hottest teacher you ever had? While I was studying music, my piano teacher was so damn hot. Wojczeck Cvitanic, tall, dark hair, beautiful brown eyes, and a body meant to sin.

4. Have you ever made out in a basement? Since I lived in Chile my whole life, I don’t even know how a basement looks like.

5. What body part do you wash first in the shower? My face.

6. Do you have any piercings? My tongue, my ears, my lip.

7. Do you have any tattoos? I want to have a large tattoo on my back. I think I’ll get it this summer.

8. Is your driveway steep? Nope, I live in downtown. So not steep.

9. What’s your favorite flavored Pringle? Original.

10. Have you ever been tied up? When I played with my sisters and cousins, we used to play Cops and Thieves…

11. What was the worst thing you ever got grounded for? A teacher told me once that I must be stupid or something because I wasn’t writing nay notes, and I told him that simply I was not interested in taking notes for such a simple class. Director called my parents, and I got grounded for like 1 week with no piano, no TV and no cigarettes.

12. Have you ever had two dates in one night? I’ve never even had 2 dates in the same week.

13. How many times have you been cursed at? Sometimes, people use to think that I’m despicable.

14. Which shoe do you put on first? The first I grab.

15. How old are you? 26.

16. Have you ever been to a gay bar? Yes, and their not that spectacular…

17. Have you ever had any Friends with Benefits? Not quite sure…

18. Is there one thing all of the times you have been in love have had in common? Dunno… I think they’re great?

19. Did you French kiss before you were 16? No. Almost at 20.

20. Have you ever been cow-tipping or snipe-hunting? No.

21. Who is the last person you usually think about before you fall asleep? My siblings.

22. Have you ever had a song written about you? No, but I composed a sonata.  About myself, of course.

23. If you had to choose to not ever wash your bed sheets or your towel ever again, which would you choose? Definitely the towel.  I can get rid of it and get dry just by the air…

24. Have you ever found anything in your parents’ bedroom that was questionable? Not really.  I’ve never thought that porn was questionable.

25. What was your childhood nickname? Fwan.

26. When is the last time you played the air guitar? Hahaha, when I walk down the street, I tend to play guitar or piano while I’m walking with my IPod.

27. Have you ever peeked in the opposite sex’s locker room? No, I am naive and shy.

28. What’s the weirdest thing you have done while driving? I’m an excellent and reliable driver LOL, I’m awful at driving, I prefer walking.

29. Have you ever bitten your toenails? No…  Can I?  It’s kinda disgusting.

30. How do you normally eat your Oreo cookies? Don’t really like Oreo, because they’re chocolate flavored.  I don’t like chocolate.

31. Name something you do when your same sex friends aren’t around?…  Pick my nose.

32. How many drinks does it take before you get drunk? I can bear a lot of Vodka, the rest it’s relative.

33. Why are you doing this survey? Hahahaha, just because!

34. What was the best year of your life? Definitely the next year.  No matter how happy or sad am I, next year will always be better.  That makes me have more hope.

35. Any strange phobias? I’m afraid of bugs, and big heights!

36. Have you ever stuck a foreign object up your nose? When I was a child, like 2 yrs old, I stuck a bean up my nose.

37. whens the last time you threw up? Mmm…  :S Whenever I get nervous, I throw up.  😦

38. Have you ever called your love interest by another girl/guys name? No.

39. Have you ever gotten caught sleeping while on a date? Never! Believe me, I’ve waited years for this to happen (me dating); and when it finally happened I was definitely not sleeping.

40. Have you ever played naked Twister? Not naked, not dressed.  Don’t like it.

41. Have you ever been drunk at work/school? At college I was drunk way more than just once.

42. How many Ellie’s do you know? Nope, not even one.

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As The Rush Comes

August 17, 2007 at 4:16 pm (dreams, happyness, improving, job, love, music, Shy)

Just for the curious I will leave a picture of me.

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“Traveling somewhere, it could be anywhere; there’s a coldness in the air but I don’t care. We drift deeper into the sound and life goes on, we drift deeper into the sound, feeling strong, so bring it on…

Embrace me, surround me as the rush comes…”

(Motorcycle – As The Rush Comes)

I came back yesterday from my interview in this big job. Finally, the decision was made: I’m in!.
I applied 2 months ago to a job bid for Lead Trainer position, and no one ever told me about what happened. I thought I would die in my filthy Trainer position, getting to know nothing about the real world, high buildings and glamour itself (LOL)

Now, they think I’m the best for the position. So, now I’m the Lead Trainer in Chile…

Finally, this is the opportunity I was looking for. Now I can make it to a great job, get to know some people and make some good money.

VoIP Company I can’t disclosure its name, Here I come!

The song is one that really makes me want someone to love. I’m waiting, I want to be embraced, surrounded when the rush comes.

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Tired (The story of a Lonely Teacher)

August 13, 2007 at 2:41 am (crying, dissapointed, dreams, Shy, unconfident)

Lonely

Today I was thinking about this note*. What could I possibly write to make it funnier? I was thinking about some changes on the speech; being more comedic than dramatic. ‘Cause, you know, if I’m still single, is not because everybody else in this world became blind. Is just that I’ve never was really good at some things (dating being one of ’em).

I was thinking about being a nerd my entire life, and I was told by other people about bullying and stuff. And, sadly, I was thinking about myself back in school. I was not even known by my classmates. I had just one ‘friend’ at school, and he didn’t even like me; he kept having me as his friend because he wanted to get closer to my lil sister. Maybe only the teachers knew about myself because they were sort of afraid that I was some kind of psycho fuck (the fact that I was by myself all the time, and no one spoke to me didn’t really helped) they ‘recommended’ me to a shrink.

C’mon people, I AM JUST SHY!

I can’t picture myself in a party, basically for two reasons: one, I don’t have the kind of friends who go out and party; and two, if I would actually had ’em, maybe they’d be embarrassed because I don’t really know how to be social. I have already a hard time being a teacher, because student’s behavior is way more intense than I remembered. And, most important thing: I just fail to see someone nicely talking to me just because. Back in high school, guys just talked to me because they wanted to approve their finals. After that, they never spoke to me again. I didn’t fit with the dorks. Not even the freaks were my friends…

I’ve been shy since I can recall. Mom tells me that is just because I’m ‘in the wrong path’. That if I catch a nice lady, my life would become easier; I would even be able to speak out freely, without feeling stupid as it usually happens. I hate being like this, I think it’s nonsensical that a 30 yr old guy, who lives on his own, with a nice work, and average looking couldn’t find a way to feel comfortable with himself.

I hate being shy!
I hate being that guy who is so silent that becomes creepy.
I hate that no one ever looked at me when I’m walking down the street.
I hate that I always fell for the wrong guy.
Because basically, my entire life I’ve had crushes on the popular guys, the ones that have a beautiful smile. I don’t even like athletic guys (it’s kinda giving up. If the regular ones don’t even notice me, why should the muscled hunks do it?), I just want to be able to picture myself as a happy guy.

I think I’m pissed off about the way I handle (or don’t handle) socialization. But the most I think about it, the most I get to the same point. I need to stop doing this, ’cause it’s killing me. I don’t want to be known just for my family. At this very moment, I just have two friends. And both of ’em live in another city. I just want…

I just don’t want to be lonely.

*Colleague of mine

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The Blurry Winter…

August 9, 2007 at 1:23 am (introducing, music, Shy, unconfident, winter)

Ah, today I’ll start writing here.

We can say it’ll be almost like a diary. Almost, ‘cuz I’m not really interested in put everything that happens to me in here. Just the most important things LOL.

Well, concerning me, I’m 26 yrs old, I’m a music teacher, and I love playing piano and singing (and dancing too). Always wanted to know US and Canada, but I know I might never get there. Anyways, I’m used to be in here. Puerto Williams, the town in which I grew up, is the southernmost town in the world, and I’m kinda used to live in small towns (usually cold, by the way). Loved the sea since I can recall, I grew up as a loner wanting-not-to-be-one-anymore. Maybe ‘cuz I don’t have a boyfriend, or maybe cuz I’m a lil’ bit shy.

What else? Not really lookin’ for anybody at the moment, just enjoying my time on this earth.

Today’s Recommendation: Definitely it would be listening to Dustin O’Halloran. I fell in love with his music. And he’s beautiful, also (crap!, beautiful ppl should not be multi-talented… that makes us “normal”[?] guys look like jerks in front of ’em).

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