Rain of Light

October 23, 2007 at 2:12 pm (love, poem, sex)

The words flourish
in the smiling mouths
and the air is flooded
with soft fragrances.
The rays of the moon
illuminate the faces
and love appears
behind the clouds.
The beauty rocks
in a garden of roses
and caresses the life
with its silken hands.
The magic of the night
fascinates the hearts
and lips join together
tasting the kisses.
The crystal stars
attract the nice dreams
and from the sky falls
a rain of light.

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After a long time of waiting, I finally did it. And I’m happy about it.

Chris, your the most wonderful human being on earth; and I love you.

Yes, I love you.

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Gay Pride and Danny Radcliffe (or should I say Dan?)

September 28, 2007 at 4:30 pm (Daniel Radcliffe, friendship, gay, love, music, Parade, Pride)

Mood:  Tired but happy.

Song:  Gloria Trevi – Todos Me Miran ( Everyone looks at me)

Tú me hiciste sentir que no valía (You made me feel I wasn’t worthy)
y mis lágrimas cayeron a tus pies (And my tears ran down to your feet )
me miraba en el espejo y no me hallaba (I stared myself in the mirror and I didn’t find myself)
yo era sólo lo que tú querías ver (I was only what you wanted to see)

Y me solté el cabello, me vestí de reina (And I untied my hair, and dressed like a queen)
me puse tacones, me pinté y era bella (Put my heels and make up on and I was beautiful)
y caminé hacia la puerta, te escuché gritarme (I walked towards the door, I heard you yell at me)
pero tus cadenas ya no pueden pararme (But your chains won’t stop me anymore)
y miré la noche y ya no era oscura, era de lentejuelas (And I look the skynight and it wasn’t dark, it was made of sequins)

Y todos me miran, me miran, me miran (And everyone looks at me)
porque sé que soy linda, porque todos me admiran (Cuz I know I’m pretty, cuz everyone admires me)
Y todos me miran, me miran, me miran (And everyone looks at me)
porque hago lo que pocos se atreverán (Cuz I do what few dare to do)
Y todos me miran, me miran, me miran (And everyone looks at me)
algunos con envidia pero al final, pero al final (some may be envious, but at the end)
pero al final, todos me amarán (At th end everyone will love me)

Tomorrow is the Chilean Gay Pride Parade.  I’m very excited, because Chris and I decided to go 😀 Is the first time I’m gonna be at one, and I even bought tickets to the official party 😀

And, puleeeeesah!… take a look at Danny Radcliffe.  He’s not little Harry Potter anymore, and he’s showing us that he’s a lot of things but a kid.

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And then came you.

September 25, 2007 at 5:48 pm (being better, dinner, dreams, flirting, gay, happyness, improving, kiss, love, music)

Mood:  Superhero!

Song:   Snow Patrol – Chasing Cars

Is funny how things happen.

I was always bitching about how lonely I feel, and when I decided to feel lonely no more, I found him feeling lonely too.
And I’m amazed by the fact that two guys can be born and raised so far from each other and still being so alike.

We’ve been seeing each other every single day since we started to date.  Movies, dancing, park, restaurants, whatever: there’s always something fun to do.
And yesterday, he was a little bit quiet.  I asked him why, if something was wrong…  His face was blushing and suddenly he asked me to be his boyfriend.

And I said yes  😀

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We’ll do it all, Everything on our own
We don’t need anything or anyone

If I lay here, if I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don’t quite know how to say how I feel
Those three words are said too much, they’re not enough

If I lay here, f I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we’re told, before we get too old, show me a garden that’s bursting into life

Let’s waste time chasing cars around our heads
I need your grace to remind me, to find my own

If I lay here, f I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we’re told, before we get too old, show me a garden that’s bursting into life
All that I am, all that I ever was is here in your perfect eyes, they’re all I can see
I don’t know when, confused about how as well, just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

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New Version Of Me

September 21, 2007 at 2:21 pm (being better, dinner, dreams, flirting, friendship, Games, gay, happyness, improving, kiss, love, music, Shy, tea, town)

Mood: Happy

Song: New Version Of You

“Can you become a new version of you?
New wallpaper, new shoe leather, a new way home
I don’t remember
New version of you, I need a new version of me”

I’m overwhelmed by the direction my life has taken this last week.

First of all, I have a clique at work though they’re not co-workers, so I spend a lot of time with ’em.

Second, my boss noticed that I’ve been workin’ hard on these past holidays (in order to provide the services that we’re expected to give to our customers, even when we’re facing a “storm” caused by the 5-days National Holiday celebration). Work was done impeccably, and all the credit was mine to seize. He was so happy that we even talked about the possibility of a trip to the States (yay!)

And finally, I met a guy. Is kinda funny, cuz we met long time ago through internet (I told you that I was a gamer before, right?).
I’ve been playing Lineage 2 for a long time, and this guy was in my team, and we used to talk about stuff (tons of it. he knows me better than my dad, by now).
Last 19th all geeks that play on the Chilean server got together in a barbecue, and since I’m feeling more confident about myself, I went to the meeting.

It took just one second. I look at him and I stared. I was dazzled, this guy is handsome and sweet, and shy too. It was glorious, because we both were looking at each other’s eyes… We started talking, and we realized we have a lot in common. It was about sunset when we decided to keep talking in a quieter place.
Since my apartment was a 10 minutes walk away, we were on our path to get a nice cup of tea. We kept talking about music, life, movies, games, and everything was flowing naturally… Suddenly he took my hand, and he told me he thought that I was beautiful and rare, and he kissed me in the cheek… He was blushing and he was really, really nervous (and so was I, but I tried not to crumble and melt right there).

I just wanted to, so I held his hand for a few seconds, and I kissed him. His lips tasted so sweet, and he was trembling as I was; we kissed for a long time…

That day, officially we started dating. Today, we’re going out for pizza and beer, and then to a movie.

I AM HAPPY!!!

BTW: His name is Chris. And he has the most intense brown eyes I’ve ever seen.

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Get to know J

September 11, 2007 at 8:52 pm (being better, gay, happyness, improving, know me, love, Shy)

This was borrowed from Tigeryogi’s blog:

1. What is your best friend’s Dad’s name? :$ I don’t know if he actually has a regular(any) friend. I must say Juan, wich is the name of my grandfather.

2. What body part do you hate the most? I hate armpits. They are so not cute, though they’re sexy when a guy in a tanktop comes to you…

3. Who was the hottest teacher you ever had? While I was studying music, my piano teacher was so damn hot. Wojczeck Cvitanic, tall, dark hair, beautiful brown eyes, and a body meant to sin.

4. Have you ever made out in a basement? Since I lived in Chile my whole life, I don’t even know how a basement looks like.

5. What body part do you wash first in the shower? My face.

6. Do you have any piercings? My tongue, my ears, my lip.

7. Do you have any tattoos? I want to have a large tattoo on my back. I think I’ll get it this summer.

8. Is your driveway steep? Nope, I live in downtown. So not steep.

9. What’s your favorite flavored Pringle? Original.

10. Have you ever been tied up? When I played with my sisters and cousins, we used to play Cops and Thieves…

11. What was the worst thing you ever got grounded for? A teacher told me once that I must be stupid or something because I wasn’t writing nay notes, and I told him that simply I was not interested in taking notes for such a simple class. Director called my parents, and I got grounded for like 1 week with no piano, no TV and no cigarettes.

12. Have you ever had two dates in one night? I’ve never even had 2 dates in the same week.

13. How many times have you been cursed at? Sometimes, people use to think that I’m despicable.

14. Which shoe do you put on first? The first I grab.

15. How old are you? 26.

16. Have you ever been to a gay bar? Yes, and their not that spectacular…

17. Have you ever had any Friends with Benefits? Not quite sure…

18. Is there one thing all of the times you have been in love have had in common? Dunno… I think they’re great?

19. Did you French kiss before you were 16? No. Almost at 20.

20. Have you ever been cow-tipping or snipe-hunting? No.

21. Who is the last person you usually think about before you fall asleep? My siblings.

22. Have you ever had a song written about you? No, but I composed a sonata.  About myself, of course.

23. If you had to choose to not ever wash your bed sheets or your towel ever again, which would you choose? Definitely the towel.  I can get rid of it and get dry just by the air…

24. Have you ever found anything in your parents’ bedroom that was questionable? Not really.  I’ve never thought that porn was questionable.

25. What was your childhood nickname? Fwan.

26. When is the last time you played the air guitar? Hahaha, when I walk down the street, I tend to play guitar or piano while I’m walking with my IPod.

27. Have you ever peeked in the opposite sex’s locker room? No, I am naive and shy.

28. What’s the weirdest thing you have done while driving? I’m an excellent and reliable driver LOL, I’m awful at driving, I prefer walking.

29. Have you ever bitten your toenails? No…  Can I?  It’s kinda disgusting.

30. How do you normally eat your Oreo cookies? Don’t really like Oreo, because they’re chocolate flavored.  I don’t like chocolate.

31. Name something you do when your same sex friends aren’t around?…  Pick my nose.

32. How many drinks does it take before you get drunk? I can bear a lot of Vodka, the rest it’s relative.

33. Why are you doing this survey? Hahahaha, just because!

34. What was the best year of your life? Definitely the next year.  No matter how happy or sad am I, next year will always be better.  That makes me have more hope.

35. Any strange phobias? I’m afraid of bugs, and big heights!

36. Have you ever stuck a foreign object up your nose? When I was a child, like 2 yrs old, I stuck a bean up my nose.

37. whens the last time you threw up? Mmm…  :S Whenever I get nervous, I throw up.  😦

38. Have you ever called your love interest by another girl/guys name? No.

39. Have you ever gotten caught sleeping while on a date? Never! Believe me, I’ve waited years for this to happen (me dating); and when it finally happened I was definitely not sleeping.

40. Have you ever played naked Twister? Not naked, not dressed.  Don’t like it.

41. Have you ever been drunk at work/school? At college I was drunk way more than just once.

42. How many Ellie’s do you know? Nope, not even one.

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Was it impossible to float for a while???

September 3, 2007 at 11:06 pm (dinner, dissapointed, dreams, drinking, gay, kiss, love, music)

Just for making a difference?

I was getting interested in the guy. His beautiful eyes, his mouth, his way f thinking, the way he look…

But of course, things are not like we wanted. After that day I posted in here, we had a nice dinner. After that we went to my apartment, and keep on drinking some wine (you know I love it). We were sitting on a couch, and he got really close to me. I was nervous, I felt excited and nervous at the same time, is like being on a roller coaster… He never stopped looking at me, and I told him that he was making me nervous, though I couldn’t stop smiling. He told me to close my eyes, which I did just to feel his breath upon my lips. He softly kissed me, and it felt awesome, and weird and strange, and awesome again (first time… I was kissed!!!).

Of course, it couldn’t be that perfect…

He told me yesterday that he needed to talk with me. That he thinks tat I’m a great catch, that I’m one of the coolest guys ever and all that bullshit. Cuz he has a boyfriend.

” The torture won’t part you
Motherly breast won’t warm you
You fail and foam from your mouth
why is it so loud, this sound?

All the sense your are capable of
does not seem to save you
You heed the glance of a smile
Was it impossible to float for a while?

Restless is carrying fever
burning you to pieces
In search and need of a friend
Will I bow down to this in the end?

I lay in the hands of my maker
and I want to spend the rest of it awake
Why do I get the feeling they’ll break it
It’s a fight… it’s a fight…”

The Gathering – Amity

I’ll guess I’m gonna be ok.

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Communication

August 29, 2007 at 10:24 pm (being better, dinner, dreams, flirting, gay, happyness, love, music, partying, playing piano, tea)

The party ended around 5 in the morning, so I decided to get a cab and go to my apartment. And Dan (a beautiful, beautiful guy who stared at me the whole dinner) asked me: “would you give me a ride? I live 2 blocks from your apartment” (we talked about that like 2 hours ago). I looked at him and just nodded my head… He sat near to me in the cab, and started asking me some questions: “So J, where did you live before? Why did you move to the town? Did you like it so far? Have you been to this new gay club? Do you know this restaurant?” I wanted to him to be quiet, cuz I was so nervous; but at the same time, he was staring at me very concentrated while he was asking. I felt like he did care about knowing that information. the thing is that once I was ready to step out of the cab, something really moves insdide of me… “Do you want to have a cup of tea with me?” (I know, it’s lame to invite to have some tea, like if I was a 65 yrs. old lady :D), I barely could believe what I just did. We went into the apartment and keep not talking… and share the cup of tea and looking at each other…

He noticed the piano and ask me to play a piece. I told him: “Dan, is 5:30 in the morning, neighbor’s gonna kill me”, but something in my head told me that was the perfect occasion. So I played for him, for more than an hour.

At 7, he said to me that he was about leaving, and i was kinda sad about. He look at me, and gave me the biggest hug I’ve ever had. I’ve never been that close to a guy in my entire life! After he left, i kept on playing the piano for another hour.

Well… tomorrow we’re going to dinner, together.

See ya!

BTW, the song in this video, is his favorite song, and we were the only two who were singing it when it started to play. That’s why he looked at me in the first place.

The Cardigans – Communication

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As The Rush Comes

August 17, 2007 at 4:16 pm (dreams, happyness, improving, job, love, music, Shy)

Just for the curious I will leave a picture of me.

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“Traveling somewhere, it could be anywhere; there’s a coldness in the air but I don’t care. We drift deeper into the sound and life goes on, we drift deeper into the sound, feeling strong, so bring it on…

Embrace me, surround me as the rush comes…”

(Motorcycle – As The Rush Comes)

I came back yesterday from my interview in this big job. Finally, the decision was made: I’m in!.
I applied 2 months ago to a job bid for Lead Trainer position, and no one ever told me about what happened. I thought I would die in my filthy Trainer position, getting to know nothing about the real world, high buildings and glamour itself (LOL)

Now, they think I’m the best for the position. So, now I’m the Lead Trainer in Chile…

Finally, this is the opportunity I was looking for. Now I can make it to a great job, get to know some people and make some good money.

VoIP Company I can’t disclosure its name, Here I come!

The song is one that really makes me want someone to love. I’m waiting, I want to be embraced, surrounded when the rush comes.

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Dustin, I love you!!! Please come and get me!

August 9, 2007 at 5:19 pm (dreams, friendship, gay, introducing, love, music)

Dustin lookin’ beautiful

I have to admit it.

I have a crush on Dustin. No, I fell in love with Dustin. Last night I was having the most beautiful dream, about having a totally fulfilling life. I was in my apartment (a really spacious one, in a first world city -at this point I was aware it was a dream-), just listening some piano music while I was cooking something quite exotic (it looked delicious. I’m not implying that it actually was something exquisite). My performance at the kitchen was perfect, and the music suddenly stopped. 10 seconds later, Dustin O’Halloran was taking me by the hand and saying: “Sweetie, it looks delicious…”, just before kissing me, softly and gentle. His words still sound in my head like it was true, liked it had happened. Well, of course the dream didn’t stop right there, but the important thing is that I was dreaming about a guy I’ve never actually seen (not even in videos), just some photographs. I’ve listened to his music, which is beautiful, and I’m at this very moment doing some arrangements on his work. I play a lot of piano (which doesn’t mean I’m good at it), and I totally love his music. And, I can’t actually stop fantasizing about him….

Dustin Playin’ for me (yeah, I wish…)

Well, if you want to listen to his music, or see his pictures, please visit his official website:

http://www.dustinohalloran.com/index.php

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