Gay Pride and Danny Radcliffe (or should I say Dan?)

September 28, 2007 at 4:30 pm (Daniel Radcliffe, friendship, gay, love, music, Parade, Pride)

Mood:  Tired but happy.

Song:  Gloria Trevi – Todos Me Miran ( Everyone looks at me)

Tú me hiciste sentir que no valía (You made me feel I wasn’t worthy)
y mis lágrimas cayeron a tus pies (And my tears ran down to your feet )
me miraba en el espejo y no me hallaba (I stared myself in the mirror and I didn’t find myself)
yo era sólo lo que tú querías ver (I was only what you wanted to see)

Y me solté el cabello, me vestí de reina (And I untied my hair, and dressed like a queen)
me puse tacones, me pinté y era bella (Put my heels and make up on and I was beautiful)
y caminé hacia la puerta, te escuché gritarme (I walked towards the door, I heard you yell at me)
pero tus cadenas ya no pueden pararme (But your chains won’t stop me anymore)
y miré la noche y ya no era oscura, era de lentejuelas (And I look the skynight and it wasn’t dark, it was made of sequins)

Y todos me miran, me miran, me miran (And everyone looks at me)
porque sé que soy linda, porque todos me admiran (Cuz I know I’m pretty, cuz everyone admires me)
Y todos me miran, me miran, me miran (And everyone looks at me)
porque hago lo que pocos se atreverán (Cuz I do what few dare to do)
Y todos me miran, me miran, me miran (And everyone looks at me)
algunos con envidia pero al final, pero al final (some may be envious, but at the end)
pero al final, todos me amarán (At th end everyone will love me)

Tomorrow is the Chilean Gay Pride Parade.  I’m very excited, because Chris and I decided to go 😀 Is the first time I’m gonna be at one, and I even bought tickets to the official party 😀

And, puleeeeesah!… take a look at Danny Radcliffe.  He’s not little Harry Potter anymore, and he’s showing us that he’s a lot of things but a kid.

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And then came you.

September 25, 2007 at 5:48 pm (being better, dinner, dreams, flirting, gay, happyness, improving, kiss, love, music)

Mood:  Superhero!

Song:   Snow Patrol – Chasing Cars

Is funny how things happen.

I was always bitching about how lonely I feel, and when I decided to feel lonely no more, I found him feeling lonely too.
And I’m amazed by the fact that two guys can be born and raised so far from each other and still being so alike.

We’ve been seeing each other every single day since we started to date.  Movies, dancing, park, restaurants, whatever: there’s always something fun to do.
And yesterday, he was a little bit quiet.  I asked him why, if something was wrong…  His face was blushing and suddenly he asked me to be his boyfriend.

And I said yes  😀

——

We’ll do it all, Everything on our own
We don’t need anything or anyone

If I lay here, if I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don’t quite know how to say how I feel
Those three words are said too much, they’re not enough

If I lay here, f I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we’re told, before we get too old, show me a garden that’s bursting into life

Let’s waste time chasing cars around our heads
I need your grace to remind me, to find my own

If I lay here, f I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we’re told, before we get too old, show me a garden that’s bursting into life
All that I am, all that I ever was is here in your perfect eyes, they’re all I can see
I don’t know when, confused about how as well, just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

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New Version Of Me

September 21, 2007 at 2:21 pm (being better, dinner, dreams, flirting, friendship, Games, gay, happyness, improving, kiss, love, music, Shy, tea, town)

Mood: Happy

Song: New Version Of You

“Can you become a new version of you?
New wallpaper, new shoe leather, a new way home
I don’t remember
New version of you, I need a new version of me”

I’m overwhelmed by the direction my life has taken this last week.

First of all, I have a clique at work though they’re not co-workers, so I spend a lot of time with ’em.

Second, my boss noticed that I’ve been workin’ hard on these past holidays (in order to provide the services that we’re expected to give to our customers, even when we’re facing a “storm” caused by the 5-days National Holiday celebration). Work was done impeccably, and all the credit was mine to seize. He was so happy that we even talked about the possibility of a trip to the States (yay!)

And finally, I met a guy. Is kinda funny, cuz we met long time ago through internet (I told you that I was a gamer before, right?).
I’ve been playing Lineage 2 for a long time, and this guy was in my team, and we used to talk about stuff (tons of it. he knows me better than my dad, by now).
Last 19th all geeks that play on the Chilean server got together in a barbecue, and since I’m feeling more confident about myself, I went to the meeting.

It took just one second. I look at him and I stared. I was dazzled, this guy is handsome and sweet, and shy too. It was glorious, because we both were looking at each other’s eyes… We started talking, and we realized we have a lot in common. It was about sunset when we decided to keep talking in a quieter place.
Since my apartment was a 10 minutes walk away, we were on our path to get a nice cup of tea. We kept talking about music, life, movies, games, and everything was flowing naturally… Suddenly he took my hand, and he told me he thought that I was beautiful and rare, and he kissed me in the cheek… He was blushing and he was really, really nervous (and so was I, but I tried not to crumble and melt right there).

I just wanted to, so I held his hand for a few seconds, and I kissed him. His lips tasted so sweet, and he was trembling as I was; we kissed for a long time…

That day, officially we started dating. Today, we’re going out for pizza and beer, and then to a movie.

I AM HAPPY!!!

BTW: His name is Chris. And he has the most intense brown eyes I’ve ever seen.

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National Holiday! (5 days is TOO MUCH!)

September 17, 2007 at 3:13 pm (being better, drinking, flirting, friendship, gay, happyness, improving, job, music, partying)

Mood:  Excited

Song:  Origa feat. Heartsdales – Player

OMG!  I’ve never been so excited for our national holidays.
First of all, our national holiday -officially- is just September 18th and 19th. But since this year those two days turned out to be Tuesday and Wednesday, it was made a special law to made every Monday or Friday between this 2 days also a National Holiday.  So basically, Monday 17th (today) is now a holiday.
So, celebrations started last Friday night, and will finish officially on 19th’s night.

In our National Holidays we go to a “Fonda”: a improvised resto-club that has traditional music, tons of booze and typical meals.  It’s really nice, and foreigners love to come to our Fondas 😛

This is the first time that I’m on my own for the holidays, and I was already invited by my workmates to a party today.
In fact I was celebrating yesterday as well, we went to a fonda and after that to a gay club:  It was better than I expected.
A couple of guys were checkin’ on me, and one of them ask me to dance with him.  I said no, cuz I wasn’t feelin’ it, but anyway; I was dancin with my boys and it was funny as hell.  They invited me to do the same today, but I’m tired, so I might not be going.

Anyway, I have a good feeling about these holidays.  I’ll keep you updated on what’s going on 😀

See ya!  And thanks for posting even when I’m down.  (I know I can be a real downer from time to time, thanks for not rubbing that on my face)

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More Interesting Stuff About Me!

September 12, 2007 at 3:56 pm (introducing, know me, music)

Mood :  Happy
Music:  Namie Amuro – WoWa

Hey, is really fun telling things that you never said before…  I’ll keep on telling.  I liked it!

1. What one thing, above all others, can ‘rescue’ you from a severely depressive mood?
There are two things that always work for me: 1.- listening some quiet relaxing music like Sarah McLachlan, some OSTs etc.; and 2.- watching movies.

2. Why do you run? What about it keeps you going?  As my favorite song in the world says, “I’m running to meet my higher self, I trust the speed until I have no need to run anymore; Miles and miles I run” (The Gathering – Probably Built In The Fifties).  I run because I use it to clear my mind.  I’m a very anxious guy, I have a mess on my head with all my thoughts; when I’m running, I’m also thinking, that way I’m using that time for making my thoughts clear.  And what keeps me going is the fact that I know that I will be happy with my whole life.  I’m enjoying rite now, but I will be totally happy one day, and I’m running to it.

3. You’re offered a great job, but with really low pay, back home. Then, you’re offered a crappy job, with really high pay, in NYC. Which would you choose and why?  Well, I think I might take the crappy job.  In fact I’ve always had great jobs, though I’ve been stupid enough for not getting more from them.  And money doesn’t -necessarilly- make you feel safe, it’s more about the people and what you do with and for them.

4. What is one of the scariest memories you have?  It might be when I was misdiagnosed with leukemia as a boy. I was really scared, because I thought I might die. Thanks God I didn’t 😀

5. You’re black-listed by the US and can no longer live here, ever. To what other country might you move? Let’s suppose that I live in the states, and I’ve been banned from there…  I’ll choose to live in…  Chile?  Ha ha ha, Don’t know, I think I’ll choose Canada, because I’ve always dreamed of Vancouver…  And if it’s not, somewhere cold.

Well, that’s it.  I hope you get to know me better 😀

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Get to know J

September 11, 2007 at 8:52 pm (being better, gay, happyness, improving, know me, love, Shy)

This was borrowed from Tigeryogi’s blog:

1. What is your best friend’s Dad’s name? :$ I don’t know if he actually has a regular(any) friend. I must say Juan, wich is the name of my grandfather.

2. What body part do you hate the most? I hate armpits. They are so not cute, though they’re sexy when a guy in a tanktop comes to you…

3. Who was the hottest teacher you ever had? While I was studying music, my piano teacher was so damn hot. Wojczeck Cvitanic, tall, dark hair, beautiful brown eyes, and a body meant to sin.

4. Have you ever made out in a basement? Since I lived in Chile my whole life, I don’t even know how a basement looks like.

5. What body part do you wash first in the shower? My face.

6. Do you have any piercings? My tongue, my ears, my lip.

7. Do you have any tattoos? I want to have a large tattoo on my back. I think I’ll get it this summer.

8. Is your driveway steep? Nope, I live in downtown. So not steep.

9. What’s your favorite flavored Pringle? Original.

10. Have you ever been tied up? When I played with my sisters and cousins, we used to play Cops and Thieves…

11. What was the worst thing you ever got grounded for? A teacher told me once that I must be stupid or something because I wasn’t writing nay notes, and I told him that simply I was not interested in taking notes for such a simple class. Director called my parents, and I got grounded for like 1 week with no piano, no TV and no cigarettes.

12. Have you ever had two dates in one night? I’ve never even had 2 dates in the same week.

13. How many times have you been cursed at? Sometimes, people use to think that I’m despicable.

14. Which shoe do you put on first? The first I grab.

15. How old are you? 26.

16. Have you ever been to a gay bar? Yes, and their not that spectacular…

17. Have you ever had any Friends with Benefits? Not quite sure…

18. Is there one thing all of the times you have been in love have had in common? Dunno… I think they’re great?

19. Did you French kiss before you were 16? No. Almost at 20.

20. Have you ever been cow-tipping or snipe-hunting? No.

21. Who is the last person you usually think about before you fall asleep? My siblings.

22. Have you ever had a song written about you? No, but I composed a sonata.  About myself, of course.

23. If you had to choose to not ever wash your bed sheets or your towel ever again, which would you choose? Definitely the towel.  I can get rid of it and get dry just by the air…

24. Have you ever found anything in your parents’ bedroom that was questionable? Not really.  I’ve never thought that porn was questionable.

25. What was your childhood nickname? Fwan.

26. When is the last time you played the air guitar? Hahaha, when I walk down the street, I tend to play guitar or piano while I’m walking with my IPod.

27. Have you ever peeked in the opposite sex’s locker room? No, I am naive and shy.

28. What’s the weirdest thing you have done while driving? I’m an excellent and reliable driver LOL, I’m awful at driving, I prefer walking.

29. Have you ever bitten your toenails? No…  Can I?  It’s kinda disgusting.

30. How do you normally eat your Oreo cookies? Don’t really like Oreo, because they’re chocolate flavored.  I don’t like chocolate.

31. Name something you do when your same sex friends aren’t around?…  Pick my nose.

32. How many drinks does it take before you get drunk? I can bear a lot of Vodka, the rest it’s relative.

33. Why are you doing this survey? Hahahaha, just because!

34. What was the best year of your life? Definitely the next year.  No matter how happy or sad am I, next year will always be better.  That makes me have more hope.

35. Any strange phobias? I’m afraid of bugs, and big heights!

36. Have you ever stuck a foreign object up your nose? When I was a child, like 2 yrs old, I stuck a bean up my nose.

37. whens the last time you threw up? Mmm…  :S Whenever I get nervous, I throw up.  😦

38. Have you ever called your love interest by another girl/guys name? No.

39. Have you ever gotten caught sleeping while on a date? Never! Believe me, I’ve waited years for this to happen (me dating); and when it finally happened I was definitely not sleeping.

40. Have you ever played naked Twister? Not naked, not dressed.  Don’t like it.

41. Have you ever been drunk at work/school? At college I was drunk way more than just once.

42. How many Ellie’s do you know? Nope, not even one.

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To reach the stars, and then to die

September 6, 2007 at 12:56 pm (dead, dissapointed, music, Silent)

Today, at 5 am I felt the silence covering the earth for a minute. All good and nice dreams were suddenly stopped, and all the people who dwell in the shadows of the night lost their voices and remain silent for a few moments…

Today, at 5 am, Luciano Pavarotti, the greatest opera singer alive, died in Modena, in his house.

I was lucky to see him. When he came to Chile, in 1995 (I was 13 yrs old), my uncle invited me too his concert. That moment will be with me all of my life. I remember he sang “E Lucevan Le Stelle” from Tosca, and I could felt his pain, his love, his whole life exposed while that amazing voice came out of his mouth.

I think he lived doing one of the most beautiful jobs that a person can have: to give emotions and bring out feeling from the audience.

Luciano, you touched the sky, reached the stars, died and now you will delight ’em with your magnificent voice.

Farewell.

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Silent Hill, The Tainted Town

September 5, 2007 at 12:51 pm (Games, Silent, tainted, town)

Silent Hill

The titular town of ‘Silent Hill’ is a gloomy one-time resort town that lies abandoned and derelict, consumed in a perennial fog. Demonic and disfigured creatures roam the streets and buildings, their appearances usually taking the form of private fears and/or insecurities of whomever witnesses them. The town randomly shifts between everyday reality and a decaying and blood-soaked “Otherworld”, where the monsters are more numerous. In the first game, the appearance and inhabitants of the Otherworld took shape from the traumatized mind of Alessa Gillespie. Since then, however, subsequent games have depicted the Otherworld acting semi-independently, creating monsters whose appearance is exclusive to whomever sees them. It has been implied that Silent Hill was always home to a supernatural presence (Mary Shepherd-Sunderland’s assertion in Silent Hill 2 was that it “used to be a sacred place.”), but the town’s bloody history has perverted these energies into something darker.

Commentary published by Konami has stated that the power of Silent Hill has “intensified greatly” since the events of the first game. While the first two games featured protagonists who were drawn into Silent Hill itself, in the third and fourth games, the Otherworld has reached out to people in nearby towns.

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The geography of Silent Hill is situated around the edge of Toluca Lake (where the resort itself lies), with the older sections of town located to the north and along the banks of the adjacent river. Due in part to heavy commercial development, the town is fairly self-sufficient; It has an elementary school, a shopping mall, two separate hospitals (Alchemilla Hospital in Paleville and Brookhaven Hospital in South Vale), and other stores and attractions. “Old Silent Hill” and “Pale Ville” hold sprawling suburban areas, with both apartments and homes, as well as several motels and the grand Lakeview Hotel. The beachfront area of Paleville also has a lighthouse and hosts the Lakeside Amusement Park.

The location of Silent Hill is ambiguous. The manual for the original game stated that it was somewhere in New England. The body of water it surrounds on three sides is later revealed in the second game to be Toluca Lake, however the only real-life Toluca Lake is in California. License plates in the first game indicate Michigan, but the liner notes of the Japanese version of the Silent Hill 4: The Room soundtrack CD gave an address for Heaven’s Night, a nightclub visited by the player in Silent Hill 2, that would put it in Maine. On the official Konami web site, the “map” section is imprinted with a fleur-de-lis, a traditional French symbol. The film adaptation Silent Hill places the town in the fictitious Toluca County, West Virginia.

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The film’s screenwriter Roger Avary used a real town of Centralia, Pennsylvania as an inspiration for the town of Silent Hill. In 1962, a fire in a landfill spread to the coal mines underneath Centralia and has burned since then, which forced most inhabitants to leave forever.

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Was it impossible to float for a while???

September 3, 2007 at 11:06 pm (dinner, dissapointed, dreams, drinking, gay, kiss, love, music)

Just for making a difference?

I was getting interested in the guy. His beautiful eyes, his mouth, his way f thinking, the way he look…

But of course, things are not like we wanted. After that day I posted in here, we had a nice dinner. After that we went to my apartment, and keep on drinking some wine (you know I love it). We were sitting on a couch, and he got really close to me. I was nervous, I felt excited and nervous at the same time, is like being on a roller coaster… He never stopped looking at me, and I told him that he was making me nervous, though I couldn’t stop smiling. He told me to close my eyes, which I did just to feel his breath upon my lips. He softly kissed me, and it felt awesome, and weird and strange, and awesome again (first time… I was kissed!!!).

Of course, it couldn’t be that perfect…

He told me yesterday that he needed to talk with me. That he thinks tat I’m a great catch, that I’m one of the coolest guys ever and all that bullshit. Cuz he has a boyfriend.

” The torture won’t part you
Motherly breast won’t warm you
You fail and foam from your mouth
why is it so loud, this sound?

All the sense your are capable of
does not seem to save you
You heed the glance of a smile
Was it impossible to float for a while?

Restless is carrying fever
burning you to pieces
In search and need of a friend
Will I bow down to this in the end?

I lay in the hands of my maker
and I want to spend the rest of it awake
Why do I get the feeling they’ll break it
It’s a fight… it’s a fight…”

The Gathering – Amity

I’ll guess I’m gonna be ok.

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